Archive for December, 2008

Late: Thanksgiving ’08 – Thursday

I told myself like a million times not to be in love with you but it seems to be a million times harder that what it seems to be. Like you told me nothing is impossible, I tried to believe that and reminded myself every now and then it comes to me to tell you first how I feel. But it just proves to me that impossible is possible. It is impossible not to fall for you. There’s this love bug inside of me that I’ve been keeping for sometime now. I couldn’t possible get rid off. I’ve waited long enough for us to get along and eventually be friends, sharing whatever it is that we find amusing enough to share with each other. In laughter, I conceled whatever it is I have inside of me that goes being “more that friends”. I wanted you to buy me that book but I couldn’t tell you so, cause you might actually get my point. You’re smart enough in almost everything but in people’s feelings, you’re bad, bad enough not to know you’re someone else for me. But at least you are sensitive enough to make me stay since the “sweet november”. I don’t wanna lose you this time around. I already lose you when you thought of me as some crappy-push-over. I don’t care how long will it take for us to be in some state. I wanted you to know you are not just some random. I am changing for you, for us not to lose what we have right now which is already extra special for me, though, JUST FRIENDS.


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It was near sunset, still on the rush, still had things to settle. The smell of alcohol still lingers on me. I came back, he was still there maybe for a thought would be/was waiting for me? No talks, just a hundred smiles. I started on not being me. I start to talk, well for that moment would be just plain dirty shit. Intoxicated as I am, with a pen and a paper wrote notes like a grader or even worse. He, trying to help, finished my notes with a word or two. He, still wondering. Home at last. The following days were as miserable as it is, that I couldn’t even imagine would have happen. Nothing is impossible. Addidas.

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